A friend once asked me, "What am I most afraid of?" I was unable to respond to her, although...
I really wish I could have tuned in that I'm terrified of what's ahead- The future..
In the future, when I'm young and in good health, I picture myself clutching a picture of my loved ones close to my chest, crying, condemning everything, feeling depressed, but also understanding that nothing will change except for me,
The future in which I find myself making decisions, hurrying, and dying every day with every breath, and the world allows it to occur since no one knows and no one ever will,
In that future, I'll be afraid to grasp a man's hand again, cry, get hurt become furious, lose, discover the patriarchy, and latch on to the idea that I've never belonged,
The future in which I stand in front of everyone and cry, fail, and lose, and then continue to wander through whatever it is that I go through,
The future where I lose myself, my lengths, become weak, disabled, and need aid and no one is there to constantly wake me awake,
The day when I meet them again and they come back to me after painful breakups and hurt sentiments, making fun of my naiveté in front of the self-centered world,
The future that beholds me with self-centered companions, a heartless world, crumbling morals, violent acts and dwindling regard,
(Listen to : LANY)
But what keeps me going is - "Everything we have gone through over the years has been tolerable, which is why you wake up every day and strive more, live harder, but also learn to break again. Your soul, the truth you know, and the truth you sense but don't want to hear are the only things that never change about you." Fix things if you can, break yourself and go to lengths...you never know who's dealing with what!