Dear Dairy,
I believe it feels empty ever since I parted ways. I try, but I know that I'll never feel complete. However, there's always an unless—and I know of no one, who will try as hard for me as he did? Every moment breaks down for me with the lash of happiness turning into fear of being left alone and fear of not being loved enough. I feel repeatedly blamed, either for our misfortune in love or for fate's creation. You bring it back to me how unlucky I am in love, something I already knew. Since I began communicating my emotions, I have learned a lot more.......
Feelings: How does it feel to be hurt again and again?
Heart: Just became so used that even pretending became a cakewalk.
Feelings: Nobody cares, you do know!
Heart: Now, yes!
Feelings: So wearing a smile tomorrow again?
Heart: Yes, it's obvious. Feels like something keeps stomping on you and never lets you out.
Feelings: And this keeps happening cause you're hurt.Why are you scared of love?
Heart: Cause we keep getting back to Square A. And the worst part is -- It hurts like breath-robbing.It circles every night and day, the fear- of being unloved, of not being loved enough again, and of hollow bonds, it kills more than suffering.
Feelings: A square perimeter always comes back to the initial point, haha.
Heart: Yes, this logic are why I started cherishing people again but not love.
Feelings: But you try! Be proud!
Heart: Maybe...yes...
Feelings: What do you think the humans in the world are made of..?
Heart: Um...maybe there are more than what we think, you never know humans! Either its matters or love.Whichever you like to hear.
Feelings: But do you support this strength of diversity, this rush of changes, these shape-shiftings, this flow of emotions and you( feelings)?
Heart: On the main ground everyone becomes a pretender or a hider but
when you love someone "you devote"
"you try, you change and you smash it all"
"you know they deserve your world and they deserve all of you"
ah... yessss..I know that more than the heart or brain does.
Feelings: So, what's the plan?
Heart: Let yourself out, let the world know you --- cause you're one of the most beautiful creations that are formed inside humans. You deserve a lot more than betrayals and lies. But remember, getting hurt or broken isn't stopping but just afresh changing.
Feelings: Yes...and what about you?
Heart: I'm gonna be there for you, for wherever you are.
Feelings: Just need the right road at the right time, haha...
Heart: Yes...
(The End)
From
Me to Someone I'd love to share my fate with,in another life