--Can we just rewind or let it be! --
This all started when I was in high school. I usually didn't had much friends but I found him staring at me from the other section . We started connecting socially and I got to know a very sweet person through an online world . He texted me throughout the days , all his happenings , all his problems and happiness's . He tried to solve my problems as if it was his own , he tried to fulfill my little wishes starting from chocolate ice creams to home-cooked veges , we travelled a bit because I loved to travel new places , spent time talking and sharing memes everyday . Our birthdays went by , it was just a year with him but things became complicated as I shifted away. Someone said distance ruins it all! I never believed this but now I feel like I do . There are times we cared a lot , we acted up , exchanged gifts , created surprises , we agreed to each others not-so-good choices , this might look normal but was too much satisfying to us - just one close friend and life it was. We were such great friends that we weren't yet that ready to leave each others back , despite anything happens -- apparently !
I clearly remember it was spring of the year , I slowly went into a deep change due to some pressure , I failed to afford a social life and my mental health went through a lot . By the time we lived our own lives without letting each others know much and yet he shared more than I did . Yes! I regret loosing that communication but I cherish that moment , that space got me the strength to stand again. Understanding faded and the final break came up. It was a very lucky occasion for him one day - we say friends who stay are real - and I backed off . I could have been there or just a text from me would have reached him but it didn't . I wasn't there for him but he was always like a back-bone to me .
How hurting it could have been I don't know but he knows better than me.
I don't know if he's reading this blog or not but I am genuinely sorry to him , we have lost all connections after that day even though we live in the same city but yet choices led us to this phase .
I will always be a well-wisher even though I couldn't a be a good friend !
There are moments and choices in life you cannot control but there's something that can get you back and that is selflessness with the person you really care for . When you start to reach the limit of selflessness -you drop everything you cherish and wish to be lonely - just don't - Live the most while you can and let things pass with a smiley goodbye. Apart from all this complicated feelings I just suggest you with a smile that don't loose the person who care for you above his/her own zone , even though it's little , it matters. Don't loose or hurt them and even if you do somehow , cherish the memories you made , it's the little love like a plant you don't know about . Your life is indeed all about you but life also gives you box memories to cherish.