Melodramiac

  *Lany sobs* *Indistinct chattering diminishes and everyone pays attention to Lany* Lany - Dear Elle, See! I got your favorite roses today( Lany smiles with tears dripping from his eyes).You know better than anyone that I hate speaking in front of audiences.  Without you, I wouldn't have made it this far. I apologize for being this late and a worthless friend to you.  (Lany sobs for a long before continuing.)  First of all, I want to thank you for encouraging me to discover both the upsides and downsides of the world we have shared. I don't know who will be there if not you to share my thoughts with, argue and makeup with, race until we get to the school, get drunk and cry again, or push me until I get up again and re-start or to dramatize until I catch the track again, to pamper me while I'm down. I don't know about it all  if it's not you beside me. But I promise I will live a better life as you wanted me to. I don't care what people think of us or of me toda...

It's just the beginning,   Where do you belong?  None cares, dear!    Dear Future Me,  It's just the beginning. you grew up questioning yourself "What do you call home ? ", "Where do your dreams take you?", "Why do you feel so incomplete?", "Why are so calm whenever something's about to be wrong around / with you ?", "What comforts you the most ?", "Where do you feel safe or do you ever feel so?", "What makes you this accepting  yet not enough for people?", "What makes you this much adjusting yet not enough ?" , " What is love and family for you?", "Why do you grow/change just with books and films, not with people?"...and a lot of weird questions, believe me! Growing older is difficult, but you mature sooner when there is a lot going on around you.   You cannot stand weak and count your responsibilities , you are afraid of people, you're afraid to cry, you're too late...